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I'm getting tired. You seem so busy with your OWN. I haven't seen you for almost a week! And I'm going hysterical! My friends got your cellphone number from your friend, I texted you. You didn't even answered back!

I shouldn't be worrying about you. I just think of you more than the normal way of thinking about somebody. This is crazy.

Could you just be a man? You're getting older! Please don't just grow old, grow up! You're soon to be a real man, not a boy. I'm not telling you this for me, but for you, because I care A LOT for you.

Man! I'm crazy over you. I'm not asking for anything in return, but please take care of yourself! Think about your future! I don't like to imagine that you made the wrong turn.

I miss you. Sometimes, I'm beginning to tell myself that I should start staying away from you. But I don't like to do that. I don't do the forcing my heart.

Please know that I love you. I just want you to be safe.

Posted by: Hectic Capiznon Bloggers 2009

THIS IS GETTING DEEPER

I'm not forcing you but why don't you do it now? Today, you've touched my hand again. But why did you go so early? You know, I want to see you ALWAYS. Hehehe you make me miss you deadly.

The way you looked at my eyes earlier, it moved me. Something strange. You're kind of kind to me now, unlike before. You make me kilig2x! I like your ways. I like it. I just like it.

Do you like me? Oh God, please do something nice. :)

I always think of you. Come into my heart. Aaaaargggggghhhhhhh!

I hate it! Your hand is so smooth to mine. When you walked right in front of me - I can't help but give out my biggest smile to you and your friends behind you. The great thing is, you smiled back to me too. You actually gave out just a glance and I smell something's fishy - you looked shy with that glance. Throwing your sight out of me in a nick of time? Why? You shy? Oh c'mon. You can do better that that! :)

I just want you to know - i always think of you.

It's just, why you? Why you?!

Posted by: Hectic Capiznon Bloggers 2009

I LIKE YOU BOY

It seem so impossible for me to fall for a guy like you. We don't talk much. I even talk to your other friends more often than to you. Actually, I don't like you really because you're so DUNGOL and sometimes, your gestures are just so ignorant.

Every time we meet at the corridors, we don't exchange His and Hellos. It's just so crazy that now, I think I've fallen for you. What have you done to me? With that touch of your hand to mine? With you calling my name? Oh my God, am I really falling? I always think of you! Since that, you were never separated from my mind and heart! Oh my, I'm nervous now. I don't wanna fall too much. It will surely hurt me in the end.

Aaargggghhhh! I hate this! I hate to be in love but it just sends me shivers to my back whenever I thick of you just looking at me. Oh! I remember, the times when you ask for perfumes? Hehe, it's damn funny remembering that! How could you!? How could you make me fall for you?

Oh God, help me. I'm in love with him. Is this right? I think it is. I think it's not wrong to love, right? I'm a human, I feel.

15 minutes ago, I opened your profile. It attacked me! Like, wooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! I belong to your featured friends! What's that? Waaaaaaahhhhhhh I feel so joyful. Now, I really like you. Hahaha!

It's not that I can't wait to love you more but I'm waiting. Hehehe!

I really like you!



Posted by: Hectic Capiznon Bloggers 2009

COPY, PASTE, NEVER THANKS

"Mitch, let me copy!" This is always what I hear from my classmates in college, in two different schools. Still the same, nothing's changed.

What is it actually in me that they do that? Excemption of the "ANSWERS" huh. I think yes, it's always the answers. And then, it's all no thanks! Sucks, right? Then they'll be the ones who are mad at you because you won't let them copy again or when you do that angry gestures at them whenever they come close to you to approach the answers.

They're so unfair! But in fact, that's not good for them too. They won't know anything about our degree if they don't try to learn on their own. I always imagine their future based on what they're currently doing. All of them are images of them that are saying "I don't know". That is really something stupid. You don't know? How come you have your name printed on the diploma? You even bring the school to embarassment.

Sad to say, my friends also are doing the same thing. It really makes me feel mad. It's like they put their weights on my left shoulder, my right shoulder, my back, my right hand, my left hand and even my brain. That is so annoying! I want to tell them but I'm afraid to hurt them. Guess I should do it -- telling them it. But when? When is the right time to tell them?

This is so hard. Plus, we have this girl classmate whom my three friends hate -- they're all ex-friends now. That's sad. I once hated the girl, because I know what's going on. The thing is, now, I'm ok with the girl. We don't talk at school. She even tapped me goodbye at my shoulder last time when she's heading home. That was a shock to me, but I pretended to act normally. We even trade sms sometimes. Since I am the secretary of our class, I need to inform everybody as much as I can because it's my job. Surprisingly, I ignored that I've informed her once. Then she responded to my message. I grabbed that time the opportunity of asking her some2x. But I was disappointed. I never got the answers that I expected.

I guess, I'll let it go that way. Let everything cool down on its own way, not mine. I just wish so hard that they'll be ok.

Anyway, about the other classmates, I pray for them. Also, I pray that this madness I am feeling for them will go away soon. And they will change for the betterness.

:)

Posted by: Hectic Capiznon Bloggers 2009

GLUTTONY IS ALL OVER ME

I am chubby, I know. But i really can't stop eating! I love to eat! Everybody does and everybody needs but in my case, I overeat often. That is why I get bigger and bigger ever!

Every night, I feel seeking for sweets or sours and if I don't get any, I put myself together watching T.V. or read a book or even listen to my sound gadget to doze myself to sleep.

Sometimes, I hate myself to keep big amounts of money then spend some of it on foods such as junks and sweets but whenever i get to eat them, I feel alright and not guilty, though it's expected that I will be after I eat them all.

Right now that I'm posting this, sitting in my black, plastic chair, I feel my bra compressing my abdomen that I need to adjust it, move it around left to right occassionally. Then something pricks in my mind that this bra that I'm wearing doesn't fit like this last week! Oh my! This is crazy.

Anton is the dance instructor of my mom. He goes to a gym nearby the city which is affordable, cheap and the authorized personnels or instructors were fine and not rude to clients. So, mom thought that I must go to gym with Anton though I was actually the one who opened up the topic. We've decided to check on the place but still we haven't gone there yet because mom and Anton are too busy making their clothes (my mom is.. i don't know what to call it but she makes dresses).

I'd really love to go to gym. To give myself a little bit of chance of slimming, I really mean LITTLE! I don't trust myself about this thing but i keep on trying. Isn't that good to hear? I mean, read? The "keep on trying"? I know, I know, I'm terribly a TH. But who knows? I might get what everybody's been wanting in my whole life!

So there you go. I'll be wrecklessly trying to get slim! LOL

You better wish the best for me on this. To all the others that are simultaneously going through this situation same with me, go on! Do what you like but always respect the advices people around you is giving you (but it must be respectful too. If not, don't waste time on them).

Next time again! Wish me luck! I wish you all luck too in the field you are recently active!

One more thing, I'd be really glad if you leave me some comments! God bless!



Posted by: Hectic Capiznon Bloggers 2009

YOU CAUSED MY NOT-SO-GOOD ATTITUDE

i hate the way you try to ruin my life! i am supposed to be humble, kind and quiet. but you came and you make stupidity in my world tryna break me off!


you're trying to break me off?? mother****er!


a lot damn people SAID that i WAS kind! a good person! BUT NOW?? nobody's saying that to me now! WHY? because you made me it! you a**hole!


you are better off away from me and my family! you don't now how to respect! you're just an adopted child and you know that but you act like more confident than me - see, i am the real daughter!


you are now thirst of money! drunkard! liar! a hardheaded-lazy butt! so disrespectful! you don't belong to our home. you must go far away from us. we don't need you, we don't want to see you, WE WANT YOU TO DISAPPEAR! NOW!


i am very damned ashamed of knowing you! by the way, thanks after all the little nice stuffs you did for me or even for mommy. but now , we want you to get the hell out of our world! did you understand? plant that in your dumb brain if you have one!


go away!


you are not worth the great things in the world. we hate you! and now you make a fuss of hating me because i'm being rude to you and ryan? think dickhead! you are the cause! YOU! ARE! THE! CAUSE!


i have loved you. but you disappointed me.you steal money from mommy's business, you lie to her ALWAYS! whenever you make mistakes outside the house, where do you go? to whom do you lean on? - that's MOMMY! you stupid! but you still do that? what kind of human are you? you were born dumb plus, you're growing heartless! what have become of you? were you brainwashed by our relatives on his side? if you were, go to them! live with them!


lately, i've realized only that you've used me. you used my money, my love for you and my kindness. i'm still regretting that i did all the care for you before!

you are not worth of my love!


we don't need a parasite!


HELL! WITH! YOU!

Posted by: Hectic Capiznon Bloggers 2009